I wish I could gather up all the tears that I've cried....

And fucking drown you in them.

anyways....that was just a nice little quote that danielle told me....so wuts up people? i haven't been on this damn thing in forever....kinda got tired of it....anywho i have to perform some plays for the school tonight at 6:00....it should be fun. Logan and Daniel and Paige are gonna be there...they make life interesting....lately things have been pretty shitty for me...but aren't they always? this new layout makes me happy....time to light up a cigarrette...mmmm...another 11 minuets off of my life...mft....i don't care, the sooner the better....blah blah blah.....wow...i have nothing to talk about....oh....my grandmothers dying....theres something...my cat skwoller is gone....i miss her....mmmm.....good cigarrette...anyways....what else do i have to say.....school is rotten as usual....somebody sprayed pepper spray in daniels classroom today....everyone had to evacuate the classroom....they say it was some big fat black chick.....figures....not that i'm rascist....but....you know what i'm sayin'....anywho.....yeah...i'm bored with this again...so buh bye...

ps. i never cut myself william....nor did i ever cheat on you...just thought you ought to know....true christains don't tell someone to go cut themselves and get drunk after you've told them how much you love them for over a year....but i don't hold grudges so whatever....drop me a line if you ever decide to stop acting like a prick.

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        ......*Bang*......

i feel so empty....and lonely....everything seems to go wrong for me....i just want to be happy....why can't that happen....but i do still love you....as long as you want me 2 that is....i don't know how you will feel about me when sunday comes around...but i'm calling you sunday night at 9:00....i hope that's okay....i need cancer.... i found some really pretty quotes....

You're the reason i breath, my love...

But finally, after all the tears, Ive drowned
After all the cuts, blood still runs down
The distance between us is hurting; my heart seared,
But the closeness was what really killed me, what I really feared

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hey people....i now have xanga premium.....yahoooo....anyways....william

moved away....he went bye bye...i'm dying on the inside...but we're still

together.....anyways i'm at school....i just convinced my teacher that i had

finished all my work when actually i haven't...he he heeeee....anyways...i

finished an eight page essay today...hopefully i'll get credit for

it....lol...william came over this past weekend....now i wont see him for

probably another 2 weeks...but we didn't go anywhere until sunday when we

went to the laundry mat then to freds,al's 5 and 10, and dollar

general....that was all we did all weekend....otherwise we just stayed at my

house and cuddled....i feel bad for drew....him and his girlfriend broke

up...anyways.....i wish william was here soooooooo effing much.....i wish he

hadn't of moved.....but at least he doesn't have to deal with linda

anymore.....oh well....nothing ever seems to go right....whatever....fuck the

world....anyways i have to go so i can get ready to go to lunch...which

reminds me...i'm changing 3rd block today....i wonder where my new class

is....oh well i suppose i'll find it somehow...

I LOVE AND MISS YOU WILLIAM!!!!!

<3 THE CHILD OF FILTH....

well this fist couple of days back to school have been ok...i suppose...i don't get to see paige or william all that much durring the day so that really sux donkey balls....anyways....next term we might have lunch together...if i could see his schedual i would know...i just keep forgetting to ask.....i need to see paig's as well...my classes are pretty damn easy except for marine biology cp...i feel like that class will be difficult....but all the others are a peice of cake..i can't wait for next term! drama 2,french 2,gometry, and US history1....that's gonna be a fun term! anyways.... charlyle and danielle disney  are in my lunch wave right now so it's not that bad...in nine weeks though i could possibly have second lunch wave....it just depends on what class i have for drivers ed....so w00t! danielle (wilhite) gave me her locker so now me and william have lockers right next to each other! ^_^

anyways...i'm gonna go for now....i need to try and find something to eat...i'm starving...buh bye all!

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I LOVE YOU WILLIAM!!! <3333333333